freedom comes when...

i can't sleep.

so i'll write :)
i was listening to a song yesterday by Clazziquai
it's not a Christian song per se, but i like the one line "freedom comes when you learn to let go"


I have a hard time of letting go of things -- whether it be coke bottles, tags from clothes, recepits... uhm the list goes on (if you've been to my room, you'd understand) or... somewhat painful/hurtful memories. Also, just holding onto this world in general, limits the true freedom God gives us. The way I see it is, until we can let go of our unnecessary desires and plans that want to include God, but in the end don't, is when we can truly be free. I mean, freedom in itself has many different meanings, depending on one's beliefs and understanding of what it is. But how can you be completely FREE when you're a slave to this world, people or yourself? (consumerism, pride, expectations, money, careers.... the list goes on)

So I don't have a profound point here, however, I think i've just gone on too far being unaware I may have been saved and forgiven from my sins, but if i can't presently live in the freedom God has given me... i might as well not be living. Of course there are things in life that are fun, temporarily satisfying and so we have a nearsighted view of life. I hope I can live according to God's plan, not justifying my plans as I try to incorporate God into them... because then he isn't the top priority. alright I should go to sleep... wow procrastination is a funny thing