Why.

Why I'm a Christian.

Because:
1. I've messed up pretty bad in the past, and realized on my own, I harm myself due to my sins.

2. Seeking human love and comfort has also brought a lot of pain and hurt into my life.

3. There's always a deep part of me that feels unsatisfied even when I try to fill it with materials and people. It always failed. But God didn't.

4. God just does not make sense when we think about His love, and what Jesus did.

5. Grace convicted me.

6. Jesus showed me His heart for people. He stepped down the level of the lowest... He loved them, did not condemn them. We don't throw stones at sinners because Jesus was the one who took our punishment, what we deserve is death - yet Jesus gives us life.

7. The Holy Spirit really broke me this summer, I was not ready to let go of my idols, but out of love, they were destroyed. It hurt, but I know it was all done for a reason.

8. I can't go back to living the way I used to (I know I'm still not perfect, but as I come before God everyday, living for Him because an integrated aspect of life that is an obvious struggle, but really gives me peace and joy).

9. I do not want to be miserable. True joy comes when I am free through God's love.

10. The Word of God penetrates my heart. Every time I read in the morning, or whenever, His perfect words are just what I need.

11. God is so personal. His Word is so personal. His love is so personal. His Son is so personal. His Spirit is so personal. There's nothing like that in this world.

The list could go on.
This is what has been on my heart for the past few weeks.

why am i a Christian?

something i'm going to think about this week... why am i a christian?

in our small group meeting last night, we talked about some challenging questions that christians and non-christians ask on things like:

- other faiths
- how is our faith "the one"
- predestination

and yeah, it was a good talk.
so this week... my challenge is to spend time with my brother. i don't intentionally want to be mean to him, but he's going through that annoying juniorhigh + pre-teen stage so its annoying. but i'm going to struggle with this... haha

i'm at work now. i love free food... and at the same time, hate it. well at least i can save some money while trying to earn it at the same time :)

thanksgiving, yayyy
studying, nooooo

keep going.

i'll start writing this 500 word essay in a few minutes. it's due tomorrow, so no biggie :)

dude... it's been a crazy month. how did october come so fast?
seriously, God has been so amazing and is the only reason i've survived the first month of school. i'm not all that enthusiastic about university but i'm grateful for God because He's moving and helping me through it all.

i honestly struggled a lot, especially the first few weeks. i missed my best friends so much, because we've been together since gr 5 and 8... it's been hard without them. but, God knows me and has led me to some really cool people at laurier. so i'm thankful for that

i think that these next few months are just going to be full of more challenges and struggles that will just draw me closer to God... especially with school, work and other commitments it seems like i have no time when each week comes to an end. but there's a reason God's given us 24-hours in a day, so i need to use my time wisely haha... i think i've been alright with time-management. i just need to keep in mind eating healthy and exercising will help a lot especially since school can be pretty hectic. so, i'll keep going, because i know God's just waiting to do amazing things.

philipians 1:6 "being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion the day of Christ Jesus."