why am i here?
i ask myself sometimes and answer: i don't know...
not the greatest response to an important question, but as one month as passed... i think its been a meaningful time so far, for the most part.
patience: i have learned to become patient... somewhat. teaching english, living with a friend for 3 weeks, communicating with language barriers - all these things would make trigger my impatience, but i've learned to just take things as they come and stay calm... it's all worked out for the good so far.
perseverance: the one message i heard 2 weeks into coming to korea at the english fellowship at yonsei, reallllllly encouraged me. when i feel like giving up or wanting to get frustrated over teaching, money, things back at home i remember to persevere... as hard as things get, i'm on a race... i'm growing as a person, i'm growing in Christ, i'm persevering because Jesus endured through so much more, so i know i can also.
purpose: my purpose here... still figuring it out. sometimes a day goes by and i'm like what the heck, i did nothing productive with my day. me and a few friends yesterday were in 신촌 & 이대 area *shinchon & idae* and... we ate and sat outside a convenience store eating snacks and talking. i realized im too lazy to go and explore. maybe next week i'll go out in the morning after QT+prayer... find some cool cafes or art galleries so i can begin to landmark places i like going around in seoul. i ONLY stay around yonsei and shinchon... and sometimes idae. i need to get out and explore and see this city. there's shopping, food, entertainment everywhere... but there's also areas that "tourists" don't go to, and im not a tourist so i want to see the city - beautiful and broken. koreans tend to put on a good exterior image, and the city is fairly clean, infrastructure is advanced, most people are dressed nicely; the poor/homeless/hurting are hidden well.
my idea of volunteering has kind of flopped the first month i've been here. i have about 2 months left... (i go back august 30) so this week also... another goal is to find a place to volunteer at (whether its a school, orphanage, wherever... i want to do something more productive with my time rather than just playing.) after a while... the sticker pictures, paht-bingsoo, dduk-boggi and shopping seems all the same. it gets tiring, and money just seems to go so fast.
yesterday i went to the rooftop of the apartment i'm staying at:
what a view... there were more pictures, but my battery was dying and i havent been able to edit many. but it was really peaceful up there, i wrote in my journal and just looked at the city... one view is of the mountains... its killer, seriously the sun was setting behind these rocky mountains that are kinda far but theyre my favourite ones that i can see around here.
there's so much i want to do, and yet i think i need to figure out things that are necessary, reasonable and unnecessary.
OH. and today's morning english class was by far the funniest.
i teach the 사모님's at the church (kinda.. older women? theyre not that old but... yeah)
so one was reading her journal entry and she was asking what is "ggochu" in english hahaha i'm like... uhm, we don't really say that word.. we have other ways of saying it. and she was like "ah! pepper" cuz koreans like are open and free to talk about their kids.. private parts ahahha, it was a funny class.
then someone else asked me, "i heard this ... what does it mean? ... fed-ex" i'm like.. that's a mailing company, and she was like.. "someone was calling someone.. fed-ex..." so i guessed, "fat-ass?" hahahhaha, and they were asking me how to say like bum, butt, poo, pee (cuz the one wrote a journal entry about her baby son and how he pooed and there were no extra diapers... anyway). (-_-) such a strange class when i have to answer their questions.
2 months left. whaaasaheck.
